So I’ve been doing a lot of introspection lately. I’m at a point in my life where I have to take certain decisions that would ultimately affect the course of my life and the path I eventually tread. Now I’ve actually been reflecting on life and purpose for a while now and what we really need to accomplish. You know questions like who are we? Why are we here? What are we doing? How can we effect change? Would I die without doing what I really love? What is the reason for being? I’ve come to the full realization that we all have our purpose in life and roles to play in each other’s lives; we may not all fulfill purpose but that doesn’t take away from the fact that we definitely have a purpose to fulfill. I hope I’m making sense here. We all have gifts-our innate talents, special abilities that we can pull off so effortlessly so basically, every human being has some unique, special gifts and a purpose to fulfill in life and our gifts are usually connected to our purpose.
Now I’ve been trying to link this theory of gifts and purpose to my life and the important decisions I have to make. I haven’t fully realized my purpose yet however I have a strong, niggling feeling that it’s tied to my special gift (this is based on my personal inclination and experiences). I’m trying to link my hobbies, interests and passion to a possible career path which is very viable but I’m caught in between doing just that or just going for the economically ‘realistic’ options and having a certain, stable income. You see, confusion is my middle name and I am afraid to take a decision for fear that things would go awry and I would start regretting which is the exact opposite of what I want. My heart wants something, but my head says something else, society says another thing and then my parents have their contribution too. I have rationalized and analyzed, weighed all the options, danced between some, weighed some more and then bam! right back to square one. It’s all so exhausting really.
I talked about finding purpose and recognizing your gifts and special abilities in a bid to kind of check its correlation with finding a suitable career path. A lot of times the paths we take in life aren’t always linked to whatever purpose we have. We require deep introspection and a heavy reliance on faith to find that purpose and then some sacrifices as well as necessary checks and balances to match that to the paths we decide to follow. I read something today called ‘Letters of Note’ which I found highly profound and insightful. I shall paraphrase and discuss in the next post. This post is already scattered as it is so hopefully the next post should be much clearer.
Apologies for the scatter brained post; I promise I’m not always like this.
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the elements of emancipation 