I Will Write Again

Yes!

Because I have promised and failed several times but I have resolved to do this for me. Anytime I read people’s blogs and enjoy their story telling, I shake my head and sigh at myself because that very well could easily have been my blog people were reading and enjoying, scrolling through years of content. I have so many stories and experiences I wanted to document over the years but a combination of laziness, procrastination (I know, all bad signs, *wails*) and a deep rooted fear of what people think about me held me back all these years. And that is why you see all these intermittent posts from me every now and then.

I have always found it hard to wrap my head around the fact that people have the potential to take words I write about myself or whatever, and construe it however they want. Bottom line: I hate to think about people reading my posts and wondering what’s going on in their heads as they read. I literally cringe when I view my site stats and views. This honestly has been my biggest challenge. So I resorted to being a closet writer, writing and pouring my heart out for my own personal consumption and few times, sharing with a close friend. But that’s bleh sometimes.

I am tired of doing that. I am tired of searching and searching for nothing in particular, resigning to fate and then feeling despondent and dejected after because I don’t have the voice and platform I want. I have been searching and desperately trying to fill a gaping hole in me. To fulfill this yearning to do something beyond my boring daily routine and share all the valuable lessons I’m learning. I aim to do this by gradually stepping out of my comfort zone and documenting some of these experiences. If it captures the attention of one or two people, that’s more than enough for me. But I have just desperately felt the need to start this and stop wasting time which I have done already a lot of. It’s one of the reasons I changed the blog’s URL with a goal to steer the focus of the blog.

I hope to deliver more inspiring, motivating and sometimes humorous content; something a driven, young person like me can relate to. It’s what I feel best able to do and what I have been hoping to start for a long time now. I swore I was going to overcome and start in January, but look! It’s November and the year is about to be over and what have I done? *crickets*. Half the time, I completely forget I have WordPress lol.

But yes, I will write again. Now let me go back to the arduous task of writing cover letters.

Peace, Love and Sunshine

xx