Heartbroken

I think I’m in love right now but I’m not too sure. Thing is its been a loooong while since I’ve actually had quite deep feelings for anyone and I was beginning to be afraid for myself that I wouldn’t know how to love again when the time comes. But unknowingly and unsuspectingly, I fell! I fell hard and now there’s no one to catch me.

Have you ever felt so lonely in love and uncared for like you’re a fool in love ? Its an early saturday morning and all week I’ve been angry with this my ‘love’. At a point I just resigned myself and stopped trying to be sad that he didn’t care. But this week, too much just happened and yes he still didn’t show any care. He mixed up my birthday date with another, still didn’t tell me happy birthday, didn’t make it up, refused to call or show any sign of care all in the name of being busy.

And here I am thinking why did I fall for this kind of uncaring human being. I mean there are people in my life who show me much more care than he ever did and I just wish I could transfer the love to them.

My friend told me ‘fall with your head’. But this dumb love. I didn’t even know when I was falling so I could use my head.
I woke up this morning feeling sad. Still no news from him. I didn’t even smell a ping how much more dreaming of a call. Is this life?! Now I know why they say Love sucks. I wish I didn’t just fall like that. Now I feel like a fool who is all alone by herself in love.

Sorry if you think this is shallow but I needed an outlet to bring all this out. And besides we are all humans and we all have feelings. And no matter how hard we may try we all fall in love at one time even when we don’t want to.

I’m just really sad right now.